In my very-best-but-not-even-remotely-close Adele voice: Hello. It has been a while since I blogged. It’s been so long I don’t even recognize my WordPress draft. WordPress looks different. I am on the other side of my second semester of graduate school. Only 3 semesters left. Yes, I am counting. Graduate school has been tough. I miss working. I miss sick and vacation days. I miss benefits and a steady income. This semester was different from my first and I can’t quite articulate how. I had difficulty adjusting back to school after Christmas break. I couldn’t find the balance between school and staying aware of what is happening in our country. Somehow, I survived and didn’t fail. Every time I received a grade back from an assignment I was sure I muddled my way through, I was shocked. Did I actually get an A on this? Did I actually survive 6 group presentations gracefully? I hope my focus during summer session is different because I expect summer to go by quickly. I start practicum in two weeks and I need to start preparing for a conference I’m presenting at.
As to the blog, I want to write and create more content this summer. I don’t know if I’ll have the energy. I have drafts from months ago, but the energy and motivation to write is low. I have drafts about my hair as part of my identity as a black woman. I have ideas to share what I learned about myself through an experiential group counseling experience. I have ideas to share books I’ve read monthly (follow me on Bookstagram. I share my latest reads there) and to streamline this blog to be more inclusive of my interests. When I started this blog, the idea was to share parts of me with the world. At some point after doing research, I wanted to only focus on one thing. What I have realized about myself is that it’s difficult to do that. I’m not a culture blog. I’m not a photography blog. I’m not a book blog. I’m not even a lifestyle blog. I like all of those things. I want to talk about all of those things. The trouble is finding a way to share my interests in all of those things under one umbrella. I think I can accomplish that with this blog, but the Type A personality in me who likes order and organization is having a tough time figuring out how to organize it and what to title menus. With school, I didn’t have the time to think about how to repurpose or redesign this blog. Maybe I can spend a few days before summer session starts thinking about this. For now, I’m just thankful for surviving second semester of grad school and the energy to write about it.